I like your dissertation. I should pretend that I've spent all this time in heavy contemplation of it. The truth is that I have been thinking of it at random times, and mulling over it.
I don't think you're wrong that, wherever I go, whatever I do, I am pretty much the same person. The sticking point is that I wonder if all the people who don't have that feeling, and it seems to me that more people are totally unsettled when uprooted, are more dependent on the environment for their senses of self. It's kind of difficult for me to imagine that, but then it's often difficult to really, truly understand a feeling that's pretty alien for you, right?
This probably sounds really corny, but to me, after we got so close, Kim was my home. I would have lived with her in a carboard box and not been truly unhappy. I would, of course, have wanted to get us somewhere safer and more comfortable, but I wouldn't have gone to such a place and left her behind. Home without Kim wasn't home. That's one of the reasons losing her was so devastating to me. One of the reasons why it still is. We always said that, no matter what else happened, Poppy and Bird belong together.
Now while I'm flying in a holding pattern it doesn't really seem to matter to me if I fly in a holding pattern in Columbus or Cincinnati or somewhere in Colorado.
I dunno if that even makes sense or is just my brain dumping. :o)
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Date: 2010-06-30 09:15 pm (UTC)I don't think you're wrong that, wherever I go, whatever I do, I am pretty much the same person. The sticking point is that I wonder if all the people who don't have that feeling, and it seems to me that more people are totally unsettled when uprooted, are more dependent on the environment for their senses of self. It's kind of difficult for me to imagine that, but then it's often difficult to really, truly understand a feeling that's pretty alien for you, right?
This probably sounds really corny, but to me, after we got so close, Kim was my home. I would have lived with her in a carboard box and not been truly unhappy. I would, of course, have wanted to get us somewhere safer and more comfortable, but I wouldn't have gone to such a place and left her behind. Home without Kim wasn't home. That's one of the reasons losing her was so devastating to me. One of the reasons why it still is. We always said that, no matter what else happened, Poppy and Bird belong together.
Now while I'm flying in a holding pattern it doesn't really seem to matter to me if I fly in a holding pattern in Columbus or Cincinnati or somewhere in Colorado.
I dunno if that even makes sense or is just my brain dumping. :o)